Dating & Relationships

[narcissa]

tell us all about it

It was such a shitfest, such a shitfest

I feel like less a person

Sounds like all my love life

[Delirious Biznasty]

ok then

this "relationship" was just playing me like a fiddle, then she became extremely weird and started lying about a bunch of stuff, at this point I knew we weren't dating and it seems like she never considered it.

She pushed my buttons repeatedly after I said to stop, caused me to actually breakdown and start sobbing. More verbal abuse, more verbal abuse, accusations of rape, accusations of faking my disabilities, accusations of stealing from her, I could list more if it didn't upset me. So, after all of this shit, with a fuck ton of talking, we left on a neutral note

I told myself I would give her one last chance, a stupidly naive move. Yesterday she asked if I wanted to hang out, I said sure. She lives over an hour away, I was halfway there when she told me if I could instead come over 4 hours later. Turns out she wanted to blow a guy, after telling me when we were "dating" that she has never and will never suck a dick.

So, because of that, it ended on the worst note possible. I felt anger, sadness, depression, anxiety and a list of other emotions all at the same god damn time.

The worst part? I am still conflicted about wanting to be her friend. I removed her from everything, blocked her on everything, but a part of me still wants to be her friend. I am an extremely lonely person and I stopped talking to my last real life friend because of something similar to this in the verbal abuse territory.

I hate life.

[Delirious Biznasty]

tell us all about it

It was such a shitfest, such a shitfest

I feel like less a person

Sounds like all my love life

If I wasn't hideous and lived near you, we could be pathetic together

you know, in a strictly platonic relationship like every girl I have been around

[grue]

she's trash and that has no bearing on you as a person

[Zomber_Jesus]

That sucks man. Very similar to what turned me off dating completely. I don't think I need to tell you to stay away from the scum but still please do.

[Urser]

:(

[narcissa]

she's trash and that has no bearing on you as a person

I literally read that as adressed to me and it made me sad confused but also with a weird sense of familiar

[narcissa]

The worst part? I am still conflicted about wanting to be her friend. I removed her from everything, blocked her on everything, but a part of me still wants to be her friend. I am an extremely lonely person and I stopped talking to my last real life friend because of something similar to this in the verbal abuse territory.

I hate life.

I still miss someone that was toxic ultimately abusive and who i didn't manage to get over for at least 6 months so... i get it?

[grue]

if bad people were naturally dislikeable the world would be a great place. but again, that they're likeable is part of what makes them bad.

[Tempest]

i have a single real life friend still and he has 2 kids and a wife so i do all of my socializing exclusively on the internet

it used to bug me a lot but i've mostly managed to convince myself that online friends are fine too, i have plenty of those.

technically i've met john, tiernan, matt and erika in real life too so that counts??

[grue]

why don't you get a hobby of some sort

I have an extended network of friends and acquaintances just from being involved in volunteer movie club activities and other cultural stuff

[grue]

I mean I'm still alone for the greater part of my days but for me it's on purpose. work related

[Delirious Biznasty]

why don't you get a hobby of some sort

I have an extended network of friends and acquaintances just from being involved in volunteer movie club activities and other cultural stuff

I have legitimately thought about going to my friends church to meet people

[fat lesbian]

a lot of ppl our age use churches for that it's not a bad idea when u remember they are really just community gatherings

[fat lesbian]

i have a single real life friend still and he has 2 kids and a wife so i do all of my socializing exclusively on the internet

it used to bug me a lot but i've mostly managed to convince myself that online friends are fine too, i have plenty of those.

technically i've met john, tiernan, matt and erika in real life too so that counts??

online friends absolutely count like... i interact with my irl friends mostly online. u can still communicate and form emotional bonds w ppl. there's no reason they wouldn't count and the concept of separating the internet from Real Life™ is absurd.