Perth Thread

[grue]

God is with you whether you care for it or not. Doesn't have to be a christian God or a deity at all, but it's there. I call it the I.

I haven't been to therapy but it wasn't for lack of motivation. In this country only recently a non-clinical take on therapy started to emerge, but the stranglehold of clinicalism is still brutal. By which I mean that psychologists themselves have a motivation to be a kind of doctor for the mind rather than guides for those who are lost. Psychotherapists do exist though, and some very good ones, but they are private practice and it takes money that I don't have to support those consults.

I know I joke about being poor but I have been living in technical poverty for years and years. I say technical rather than actual poverty because I am supported by my parents (I contribute with manual labour). I've been pushed out of the academic path by a variety of factors that would take too long to number but they also are related with my repeating pattern of loneliness and isolation.

So lack of a stable job means no money and to go to therapy I have to either have the cash to talk to a good psychologist or I have to go through the system and meet a psychologist at the clinic where they are famously... clinical. Note that I live in a small rural village, so even that would require moving to the nearest clinic which is a longish drive away.

So yeah I kinda had to therapy myself through meditation and reflection. I expect that by the end of this year I'll be, for the first time in my life, in a comfortable financial situation so maybe then I'll give it a go. I do need it a lot. I know that I have baggage beyond the baggage that I can actually recognize.