(actual) DRUG DISCUSSION THREAD [DONT TELL MOM AND DAD EDITION]

[grue]

used to smoke a lot of pollen. never got along with weed very much, shit makes me faint for some reason. when i smoked a lot of pollen was when i also developed an alcohol dependancy, also the smoking, and it was a very shitty time in my life. nowadays i barely touch the stuff and i dont identify with the kind of high it gives

lsd/shrooms were a good buzz but like i said it was all very mild, i never took much, and since im always hyperconscious of myself i never really relaxed enough to enjoy the ride. alcohol relaxes me but i didn't want to mix the two so there it was

tried some mdma once out of being drunk and stupid, kinda self-destructing binge, it was a lot of fun but it really isn't my thing. i don't like being "guided". don't enjoy the idea of ingesting Fun. ill have fun if im having fun, ill be grumpy if im feeling grumpy... took me long to accept my emotions and i dont feel like supressing them any longer

which, funnily enough, is something i learned on my many drunk/stoned nights, so there's that